4w1d (15 dpo!)

So I meant to do this on the 4 week but got a little busy.

How far along? today is 4w1d
Total weight gain: down 7 pounds from IVF transfer, normal weight :)

Maternity clothes?! bought the first ones online!

Stretch marks? nope!.

Sleep: awful. been unable to sleep since 3w5d. bah:/

Miss anything? pumkin beer

Movement: cramping. major cramping

Food cravings: mexican- but I always want mexican

Anything making you queasy or sick: first thing in the morning.

Gender: leaning towards girl ever since we saw the blastocyst. lol I know it's crazy

Labor signs: I may delete or ignore this until much much later.

Symptoms: exhaustion. extreme exhaustion. charlie-horse cramps in feet, muscle fatigue

Belly button in or out? In 

Wedding rings on or off? On.

Happy or moody most of the time: generally happy

Looking forward to: beta appointments and feeling secure about this pregnancy.

4 weeks!!!!

We are officially 4 weeks pregnant! The time to beat is 6 weeks 1 day. I told DH once we hit that point, I will calm a bit. in the meantime, every cramp makes me freak out that we are losing little Bee.  I peed on a stick (POAS) this afternoon- it was darker but not as dark as I would expect for missing 2 days in between the last. I know I am silly though because it's still a really strong positive for 14dpo.

See.. not much darker but I know at this point, it's moot. It's a strong positive which should be good enough..

tomorrow is beta day!! I am so nervous. I am aiming for >60.

uhh 8dp5dt?

I actually thought it was 7dp5dt. time is flying! We are almost at the 4 week mark!! and most importantly, we are almost to beta test day.
now because I am impatient, we already know I got my bfp.. so now it's just waiting until we get those numbers back Monday afternoon. I am so worried that we will lose this little Bee.

speaking of, hubster and I named it Bee. Baby Embryo Eight. It was our eighth little embryo that ended up being the bestest. :) the name also works since being in Georgia, you either root for the dawgs or the jackets, and this household roots for the Yellow Jackets, so baby Bee it is! I think we'll stay that way for a while if Bee continues to grow, I want to have a gender neutral pregnancy and nursery.

In other news, Bee has been doing something down there! I feel light cramping off and on all day and after a good walk (no running yet, per the RE!) I get really strong cramps. I think Bee likes the extra blood flow. Other symptoms.. metallic taste. swollen boobs, and nausea. The last 2 days I have gotten extremely nauseated in the morning. It seems to dissipate by 10am but from 8:15-10am I am totally sick. The only other symptom per se is the constipation. serious constipation. it stinks. That may be from the progesterone shots.  which I HATE HATE HATE.

Hubster has started to hate them too. they hurt!! the actual progesterone doesn't hurt, but the needle is FREAKING huge and the oil just sits in your muscle, making it very sore.
So with PIO (progesterone-in-oil), you're supposed to inject the needle, and pull up to see if you've hit a vein.

 see the blood? this is bad.

you're supposed to stop and replace the needle.. aka 2 sticks. Well my RE's nurse told me this was fairly rare, but in the 12 days of progesterone shots, hubster has hit the vein TWICE. it was a blood massacre. I bled like a stuck pig. PIO sucks. I even warm it before injecting. still sucks. My hips HUUUURT.

5dp5dt..

so it's 5 days after our 5 day blastocyst transfer.. 5dp5dt. and let's face it, I am a POAS addict, so we knew I wasn't going to last until Monday. The biggest issue is that I had to get up and pee 4-5x during the night so my FMU was horribly diluted. and we know my FMU sucks from previous cycles.

what's a girl to do?

afternoon pee :)

and I may have super cheated and tested yesterday.. lol

so, the top strip is yesterday afternoon. barely a line.. but still a line. part of me wondered if it was still trigger shot.
but the bottom.. that's from this afternoon. definitely darker. so I think this means there must be something in there making more hcg!!

sticky baby, stick!

2dp5dt: Exhaustion

so we're 2 days after my 5 day transfer aka 2dp5dt. or 7dpo. 7 days past ovulation. or in this case, retrieval. infertility is full of ridiculous acronyms.

so, today was filled with exhaustion. everything took way too much energy. and my mood is all over the place. I am just so angry. bah.

PIO
Progesterone-in-oil has become the bane of my existence. my hips are KILLING me. tonight is our 7th injection and I don't know which side hurts less. I cannot wait to be done with them. I just pray that we get pregnant and it's worth the pain.

so symptoms? lol hip pain, back pain, exhaustion, and full uterus feeling. other than that.. everything is great. lol I just gotta get through this week.

Transfer day

So today was the moment we've been waiting for... Transfer day! Up until now we've been in the dark about our embryos. The only thing we knew is that they were doing well since we had a 5 day transfer scheduled instead of 3.

So before the transfer, they require you to drink 40 Oz of water. You have you have a mega full bladder. Like painfully full.

The embryologist came in to deliver the news.. Of our 8 fertilized eggs, all 8 were alive.  One was a morula but the rest are gorgeous 4aa blastocysts. The doctor was dumbfounded. They've never seen that success rate before. Since we had 7 fantastic choices, we opted to only transfer one and freeze the other 6.

Here it is.. Our perfect little blastocyst. It's sitting safely in me, making us officially PUPO! Or pregnant until proven otherwise. Lol

the waiting game

I got the call this morning postponing our transfer from 3 day embryo to 5 day blastocyst. My nurse assured me this was a good thing. so now we wait for Friday.. :) So I leave you with The Word.

Psalm 29:11 The Lord gives strength to his people; the Lord blesses his people with peace.

Ephesians 1:17-19I keep asking that the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the glorious Father, may give you the Spirit of wisdom and revelation, so that you may know him better. I pray that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened in order that you may know the hope to which he has called you, the riches of his glorious inheritance in his holy people,  and his incomparably great power for us who believe. That power is the same as the mighty strength.

and lastly,
Romans 5:3-5[We] know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope.  And hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us.